Well sort of…Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors
Not really drugs in the sense that you feel high, but more of a balancing out the bodies natural chemistry. I really notice the difference when I adhere to my regimen. I’m not sure how I got along with out them in the first place. I remember when I first started this job how stressed out and depressed I got. I don’t really have the perfect mentality for managing apartments. I’m pretty thin skinned. I’m not very good at dealing with border line psycho’s and abusive pesonalities. Not everyone is like that, but enough to keep it all pretty interesting.
I made the mistake again of going off them. Bad choice! I was a train wreck for a few days, but I’m feeling a lot better. I have a quite depressed nature with very manic periods also. “Bipolar” they call it. The only problem with the SSRI’s is that I have a tendency to put stuff out of my mind so I get a bit forgetful sometimes. I really have to keep a schedule, or calendar, otherwise I get myself in trouble a lot. This week started out pretty bad but ended up OK.
I wasn’t even blogging for a few days cause I was so distraught.
I had a real problem with stress back through the ninties. It manifests itself when I suddenly find my self getting into dangerous risk taking behavior. Some people, drink, take drugs or eat, but I just start pushing the envelope with myself. Ipulsive, compulsive behavior. I’m paying the price dearly now for that kind of behavior.
I think the new class of theraputic drugs are actually quite miraculous. They’ve sure gotten me through this past year. At least through this Friday the 13th btw.
Well Monday I’m going to try some new angles on managing my life and my job. This weekend I’m going to analyze myself/my job and see what I can do to improve my situation. I’m starting to feel a bit more balanced and confident to make some changes.
Later…
