Apology Accepted

“I don’t need this crap right now” as I listened to my angry voice mail. “You’ve had a week to do this and I want it done immediately!” she says in a very harsh tone.

I’m having serious trouble getting work done in my buildings as the my company (Titanic Inc.) slips beneath the waves. Yes all the deck chairs have been straightened out and the shuffle board court has been polished…all has been readied for the big plunge.

I hate this waiting and hiding from these angry passengers in this steamy cloistered “steerage”. (The section of a passenger ship, originally near the rudder, providing the cheapest passenger accommodations.)

In this frigid darkness, in my gloomy state of mind a ray of light is set upon me- an apology!

I couldn’t believe it! I don’t get those very often. She apologized profusely and went on to tell me of how she had lost her job and the outlook for another was pretty bleak. How often have I heard this? We continued to console each other after I explained my situation and if we hadn’t been on the phone and instead standing before each other in person, I am quite sure we would be kicking back naked in each others arms blowing virtual smoke rings as we whispered sweet nothings…OK not that intense, but I can dream can’t I?

I don’t get a lot of people apologizing but I do a lot of tongue biting. Sometimes I’m just outraged at peoples laziness and uncaring in so many ways. I just shut up and eat it, otherwise I lose my job. I think if I do end up losing my job though, all bets are off and I’ll speak my mind in a big way.

 I can’t believe how many people are out of work right now and how many buisnesses are going down, yet I walk through the financial and it seems like buisness as usual. Very strange indeed, I guess it’s all about perspective. I sure hope for the best and I think this will turn around, I just hope my life…our life isn’t so upended to the point that it all becomes unsalvageable, like the Titanic on the bottom of the ocean. It’s getting there and I worry. The other way of looking at it is that on many occaisions things have plummeted out of the sky, crashed and burned, but out of the ashes has arisen something new, different and promising. I’ve personally destroyed my life a few different times and come out of it with a new perspective and pretty much a new life, so I remain hopeful. What can I say, but we grin and bare it and remain positive that this all means something. I’ll also cherish those apologies. I bank those for a rainy day.